knitting hands

convoluted space

sunset projections

_ _ _

breathing sunrise

[inter]locked mind

where the past lingers

time-split present

orchid in the window

windshield

the horse

"those who get in the way of love's path will be kicked by horses" - 

time only magnifies

medusa syndrome series VIII

once upon a time

a family of four lived in this building

in a single room with a french door
and five windows -

blindfolded equilibrium

eyes see what we seek

                                              "whatever it is you're seeking 

                                              won't come in the form you're expecting" 

                                              - Hariku Mirakami

"vanitas"

the days are cold here

i wrap myself in “vanitas”

the ultimate Versace that is

lately the fragrance of choice

feels soothing on my current skin

a balm to my tenuous
weary nerves

i shield inside this

ephemeral cloud of scented mist
out of all called vanity

how ironic?

uprooted once
and tossed at sea

how volatile one could be

even returning to my origin

my blood always missing the vein

failing to reach a vital
destin[y]-ation

repeatedly failing a life-
 test in humility

the nights are much colder

even the full moon is frosty distant
[in]different from here

"love is our true destiny. we do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone - 
but find it with another." - Thomas Merton

what comes down to

autumnal branches

the clock -

hands wave at me
drop hours days
ages on my face

through those brittle

autumnal branches

Sisyphus's angel

"memories, / undecided light, / ignores even / what should be / lit" - Jóse Mario Silva

windows over body-lines

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drink a toast

                                                                        to light's nakedness -

[un]covered vista

out of this window

it's not the shards of broken glass i fear

nor the chill of disdain

                                 but boredom eroding the vista

                                 [in]difference blurring the panes

                                 forgiveness misplaced

among shadows of doubt 

and light-minded [half]-truths

a dropped line

                                 on the edge of memory

                                 one broken heart bled dry

                                 then nothingness

expired quinces

the bag

                this bag along with the wooden [suit]cases behind traveled with my grandfather some sixty-five years ago across the Atlantic on his final journey home, returning from Argentina. he was part of the wave of immigrants between the two great wars - went there twice, lived and worked in and around Buenos Aires for some fifteen years. meanwhile grandmother was struggling to meet life's ends, raise and feed the kids - my father and aunt. during World War II all legs of communication were severed - there was no traveling or letters, no financial support whatsoever. no word if one was still alive, or had perished. times were really tough then. people were tough too.

                after the end of the War and by 1948 the world had gradually re-opened - old routes were re-established, goods flowing, news traveling once more. word from my grandfather flew across the ocean. he was alive and thriving - had saved enough to buy a pub. "the wife would cook. son (my father) and i would run the show," he thought. but when asking grandmother to bring the family in the new land, make a life there, she was grappled with fears - new people, strange language, unfamiliar surroundings. "they will be all over me talking gibberish," she has been remembered saying, "i won't be able to understand anything." thus she refused to move, wanted to stay in the village where she was born, had always lived in, among relatives and lifelong neighbors. hesitant at first, but left with no alternatives, grandfather packed up and boarded the last ship home. this bag was carrying a dandy suit he brought with him. grandfather was a fine man - not highly educated, but clever, resourceful, brave. 

                i found the bag full with spools of yarn this time, that mother has been storing inside for years. a few i used to knit my first pair of woolen socks after quite a while (couple of decades).

                i love this bag - it's story so dear to me, the dainty cotton cloth in pastel colors and lush patterns - mesmerizing, the feel on my fingertips - spellbinding. oddly enough, the twist of the knot reminds me of a rosebud - petals pushing to flower. now i (the granddaughter) am bringing it back - once again across the Atlantic some sixty-five years later.  ~

_ _ _

november blooms

"it is at the edge of a petal that love waits" - William Carlos William

_ _ _

beam of light

                                              - beam of love

distortion

sticks in the spokes

                                                            - pretending i could halt time

medusa syndrome series VI

knitting again

first pair of woolen socks i have knitted after a couple of decades, re-learning this ancestral mastery.

seeing the joy as my mother was pulling them up, knowing they will warm her feet in the winter
when i leave - priceless. i am grateful and smiling!